Heavy heart

An onslaught of upheavels and emotions. My heart felt like it was going to burst right out of my chest. I felt claustrophobic. I needed to get out of my home/condominium, and be out in the open. It was late, sometime after midnight. I was having difficulty sleeping. My mind was all over the place, and […]

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Thinking,talking,remembering

I feel unsettled. More than a week has passed. I think of Gunda, brother number 1, almost all of the time. It’s no exaggeration when I say I wake up thinking about him. Go to bed thinking about him.  Remembering that he is no longer with us.   This is on top of talking about brother […]

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Brother number 1

I am sad and tearful when I think that my Gunda is no more. I know what has happened but my head and heart are having a hard time accepting, believing. Most of this year, brother number 1 was not in a good way. In and out of hospitals for his protracted prostate condition. And […]

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Palliative care

Before my mum became very unwell, I knew very little about palliative care. What little I thought I knew or understood was wholly inaccurate. It was first proposed to me by my mum’s cardiologist in August, 2021. He suggested that I contact UMSC’s palliative care as he could not longer treat my mum’s heart failure, […]

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Deepavali 2023

Deepavali came and went last Sunday. It was the most low key in recent years. Even my mum, who looks forward to and gets excited to this one festival in a whole series of Indian celebrations each year, was reticent. This despite the presence of sister number 3, the family’s in-house chef, who returned home […]

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News detox

I like to stay current with current news. For me, reading, listening and watching the latest happenings inside and outside the country, is par for the course. I also write about topics that interest me. Monday to Friday, I listen to the ‘Morning Run’ on the BFM radio station. I like the business news coverage. Corporate […]

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Revolving door

The onion man made me think of the revolving door of people, shops and trends my husband and I have encountered/experienced in the 15 years we’ve lived in our condominium in Kuala Lumpur.   We have remainers. Owner-occupiers like us and many of our neighbours. We are mostly lift or lobby buddies. The usual meeting place […]

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Letting go

I had tea with a school mate recently. I was looking forward to meeting up with her. Catch-up on our personal lives as I haven’t seen her since before March 2021. Discuss and debate the socio-economic and political situation of the country with a like-minded person. Do something fun and relaxing like have tea and […]

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Prolongation

People are living longer nowadays. Thanks to a host of factors like advancements in modern medicine and cutting-edge treatments. Also, better health policies, improved hygiene, smarter lifestyle choices, and a constantly growing population.   ‘In 2020, the number of people aged 60 years and older outnumbered children younger than 5 years… By 2050, the world’s population […]

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Photographs

Niece number 3 snapped several photos with her pink, an ala-Barbie polaroid camera, at my mum’s recent 90th birthday party. She took one of my mum and me. An instant, hardcopy photograph that captured a special moment on a special day. A fitting keepsake. And, a party favour of sorts. See, touch, immediately own. I […]

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