Mobile pain

My mobile phone died on me last week. I woke up to a blank screen. The alarm didn’t go off. I checked the power lead. Tapped the screen to make it come alive. Tried to re-boot the phone. Nothing worked. The phone had literally fallen apart. The back casing was off. The glue holding it […]

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Fragility of life

Life is fragile. I’m not an exception. I realised that in 1985. The year my dad passed away. For some inconceivable reason, I never thought my parents or a parent could/would die. I thought I wasn’t like other people. God knows why. But, I did. I knew my parents were not superhuman or invincible. They […]

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Mopey

I get mopey. It comes and goes. When I’m mopey, the one recurring question in my head is, ‘What is the point of life?’ Don’t get me wrong. I’m not dissing life. On the contrary, I am grateful for my life. The people, the experiences and the learnings that have influenced and shaped me. My […]

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The plan

I made a plan. To eat more. To sleep more. To care less. Eat more. I thought that’s what I’ve been doing all these years. Eating more or at least eating enough for my wants/needs. Not according to my husband. He has always maintained I eat too little. And, what I eat does not constitute […]

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Making a call

My mum had a scheduled home visit with her palliative doctor on Tuesday. It’s always only Dr Rose. This time there was Dr Carmen, who recently joined Beacon Hospital. And, nurse Ruth. She was present to do my mum’s blood test. A once every three-month arrangement. Dr Rose’s home visit routine starts with questions about […]

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Storytelling

My mum is a depository of stories. Sometimes a little unclear but mostly interesting. Her stories have given me precious glimpses into the various phases of her life. That said, there is one peculiar but still interesting story about two young girls, who visited her and played hide and seek in her condominium. She saw […]

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Navigating life

Niece number 3 recommended it. ‘Stutz’ a 2022 documentary directed by Jonah Hill about his therapist, Dr. Phil Stutz. I like Jonah Hill. I’ve watched him in several movies, including ‘Moneyball,’ ‘War Dogs’ and more recently, ‘You People.’ He is a good actor and funny, I think. ‘Stutz’ was enlightening. It had plenty of useful […]

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Writing because…

I was in a bit of a quandary most of last week. I didn’t know what to write and post today. A few ideas/topics were jostling for space in my head. Most of them seemed oddly familiar. Very déjà vu’ish. No surprise there. I only write about stuff I think I know, and know I […]

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Finding a caregiver

It was on 7 November, 2021 that I started emailing nursing and care homes. I remember the date. My husband and I were in Zenith Putrajaya for a 2-day holiday. Sister number 3 was home for Deepavali from England. She was caring for my mum. Fast forward to now. Or should I say after a […]

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Go-to convenience

They are everywhere. I recognised the changing landscape. I just didn’t spend too much time thinking about it. At least, until now. Convenience stores and mini-markets. There are four located a stone’s throw from my condominium. Within a one km radius, there are too many to count. They are either standalone or housed inside shopping […]

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